Monday, December 20, 2010

Feed Pg 264-300

Summary:
    During their trip to the mountains, Titus and Violet get into an argument after Titus stops Violet tells him  she wanted to loose her virginity to him before she dies. This makes Titus realize that he sees her as already dead. Like a zombie. Violet expresses that she just wanted to get a boyfriend like a normal girl, do normal things, and become more anturally laid back and just have fun--live! But Titus takes this the wrong way and start arguing. They went home that night. The next day, Violet offered a truce and apologizes. Titus ignored her and goes out with Quendy a few months later. Bad things started happeneing, like hair and skin falling off of people. One night Titus receives a message from Violet's father so he decided it was urgent and visits her. Violet was trapped in her own body. She couldn't speak. Couldn't move. Yet she was still somewhat conscious. Violets father yells at Titus, explaining to him that Titus had made Violet apologize for being sick. For being courageous. For dying. This must've hit Titus hard because the next day when he goes to visit her, he tells her stories on the news. Then he cries for the first time, telling Violet about their story. The story of a normal guy and a girl with the heart of gold in the final days of America. They have adventures together and learn an important lesson about love and to resist the feed. At the end ''Everything Must Go'' is repeated and fades out in little fonts. This either symolizes Violet's death, her final thoughts, or Titus' realization of the bad affects of the Feed.

Quote:
''Sometimes that made me feel kind of tired. It was like I kept buying these things to be cool, but cool was always flying just ahead of me, and I could never exactly catch up to it. I felt like I'd been running toward it for a lone time.'' (Anderson, 279)

Reaction:
     I chose that quote because it showed that Titus realized that in the world of the Feed, you can never quite achieve your goals. This is because the Feed provides new things, new statements, and new definitions of 'cool' everyday, crushing anyones hopes of ever becoming what they want. Their ideal model of perfect or who they want to be always molts and changes. Titus realizes that he's been trying to chase unrealistic goals that he'll never achieve.

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Feed Pg 245-264

Summary:
     One morning Violet sends Titus an attachment of her full Feed-Sim of her sensations. This puts Titus in Violet's shoes by allowing him to feel her emotions, senses, and memory. Titus felt Violet's legs go numb and stop woring. Suddenly Nina, the customer service assistant tells Violet/Titus that her petition for feed repairs and/or replacement was turned down because of her spontatneous shopping ways, which confused companies about who she was (they organized people based on their Feed searches). At night, Violet tells Titus about her research of rituals where singing was often done in many different ways all around the world. She tells him shes afraid of silence and afraid to loose her past. She sends him alot of her memories the next few days, but Titus deletes them all without opening them. That weekend, Violet went over to his house to go to the mountains, one of the many things she wanted to do before possibly dying. On the ride there, she tells him that she wants her Feed to be off. Not dormant, off.

Quote:
     ''...I'm afraid I'm going to lose my past. Who are we, if we don't have a past?'' (Anderson 253)

Reaction:
     I chose this quote because it kind of related to our English class discussion of moral disobediance. That is, what so we care about so deeply that makes us who we are. This question, as well as the one Violet poses on page 253, are both questions of identity and what makes us who we are. I chose this quote because I agreed with Violet, that our past memories and experiences make us who we are, and if we are ever to loose them, it would be highly unfortunate. The fact that she tells this to Titus, makes her more vulnerable.

Sunday, December 5, 2010

Feed Pg 190-244

Summary:
     At a party, Calista gets a lesion, which are cuts on the skin, to impress her boyfriend Link. At the next party, Quendy comes in with lesions all over her body to get attention from evreyone, especially Link. Eventually Violet starts screaming and asking 'Whats wrong with everyone?' While there was starvation and problems going on in the world, evreyone was cutting themselves and partying. She calls Quendy a monster and her feed malfunctions, leaving her body unmovable. She was put in the hospital and lost a year of memories of when she was 6 (when she got the feed). After that, when Violet tries to contact Titus via the feed, he ignores her and her messages. One day Titus goes to Link's house with Marty, and they all go into mal (malfunction, which is kind of like drugs where they blank out and loose control). Only then does he realize he had to apologize to Violet, so he drives over and promises to do the list Violet sent him about the things she wanted to do. He promises to find the mountains with her (one of the things on her list).

Quote:
''...Look at what you've made yourselves!'' She pointed at Quendy, and went ''She's a monster! A monster! Covered with custs! She's a creature!'' (Anderson 202).

Reaction:
     When I first read that quote I immediately agreed with Violet. When I found out what lesions were, and that everyone could see ''all the red fibers through the splits in the skin.'' (Anderson 198). It shocked me that this is how Anderson imaged a future for us, where the feed controls us, and now tattoos become lesions, or cuts. This quote shows that Violet is different from others, she knows the difference between wrong and right, which everyone else seemed to have forgotten.

Monday, November 29, 2010

Feed pg 50-190

Summary:
     After the feed hacking incident on the moon, everyone's feeds were fixed and they returned home. Everything went back to normal and Violet and Titus started dating. She reveals to him that she wrote (with pen and paper, which was a rarity), her father was a college professor of dead languages, and that after the hacking incident, her feed has been spontaneously disfuntioning. She got her feed later than other kids, like around 7, which is bad since the feed was suppost to be connected to all the nerves in the human body. Violet started to think more and figured out that the feed made people less varied and categorized people, so to resist the feed, she would look up random stuff she wouldnt buy to confuse the corporations that categorize her. Violet felt that ''Because of the feed, we're raising a nation of idiots. Ignorant self centered idiots.'' (Anderson 113). This was supported by the fact that Titus' parents bought him an upcar after he asks them if he was dumb. A question they never confirmed nor denied.

Quote:
     ''Keep thinking. You can hear our brains rattling inside us, like the little Russian dolls.'' (Anderson 91)

Reaction:
     I agreed with Violet that the feed controlled too much of a person. It was like the internet connected to your every thought where you never had to think. In that quote on page 91, Violet encourages Titus to think; to use his brain instead of letting the feed use him. I chose this quote over another quote because it just seemed like a big step for Titus. He was like everyone else before Violet, but now that Violet started to resist the feed, she introduces him into a world of knowledge, and he started to think. I also liked Violet's use of simile in comparing their brains rattling to little Russian dolls.

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Feed by M.T. Anderson. (Pg 1-50)

Summary
     So far, Feed is about a teenage boy named Titus and his friends Link, Marty, Calista Loga, and Quendy. They're on a trip to the Moon for spring break, going to motels, parties, and clubs. In this world, everyone is connected to 'The Feed' which was like internet installed in their brains. There are also flying cars for transportation and artificial gravity on the moon. Titus thought the trip was boring but he soon met Violet, who he grew interested in. They all went to the club with Violet where a hacker managed to hack into 13 people's Feeds, including Titus and Violet. They had to have their feed shut down temporarily for it to be fixed at the hospital. During that time, he's shocked at how quiet and empty his brain was without the Feed. He was angry he couldnt understand a painting in the hospital of an empty boat, sailing on the horizon.

Quote
''We were frightened, and kept touching our heads. Suddenly, out heads felt real empty.'' (Anderson 46)

Reaction
     I chose this quote because it kind of showed how technology impaired their abilities to even think for themselves. After their Feeds were shut down temporarily to be fixed and checked for viruses, they all seemed uncomprehensive. That quote alone showed how depended upon technology they were. It makes me kind of scared if technology one day dominates my life 24/7 (literally)..

Thursday, October 28, 2010

''Change is in prospect everywhere--and if at this time there is the vision to use this opportunity creaticelyto see a brave new world and to dare to reach for it..''(Ferrer 195) Pg 190-240

Summary:
     As an advocate for UNICEF, her task was to inform others and create awareness for the many starving children. Although she was not an expert in economics or politics, being a mother helped her understand the children's problems. UNICEF tried their best to free children from hunger, repression, and constant violence. UNICEF protected children agsinst famine, thirst, sickness, abuse, and death. The things that threaten mankind, in Audrey's opinion, was the presence/threat of war, deterioration of the enviroment, and poverty. After the trip in Somalia, on the plane ride to Switzerland, there was a risk of death for Audrey, due to the increase of pressure in the air, but she managed to survive that obstacle. When news of her sickness was leaked, paparazzi swarmed their house, even in helicopters. On January 10, Audrey died almost painlessly. She was buried on a plot of land, guaranteed to her forever. On that day, the paparazzi was no where in site, and 25,000 people lined the streets of their small village; a deafening silence echoed the small village.

Quote:
     ''These are not natural disasters, but man-made tragedies, for which there is only one man-made solution--peace.'' (Ferrer 201)

Reaction:
     I chose this quote because it was the one truth that Audrey realized while visiting all the poor countries. She realized that the suffering of many were not due to natural disasters, such as tornados or earthquakes, but man-made disasters, such as war. To recognize the root of the problem, she hoped to stop the violence and promote peace in order to help the children, the future of the world. It shows that Audrey wanted nothing more than to help the children; to save them from something that the children couldn't protect themselves against.

"Is there another time in your life when love, care, tenderness, food, and education, are more important than in childhood?" (Ferrer 181) Pg 150-190

Summary:
     On December 1, 1992, the surgeon operating on Audrey had to sew her back up, due to the fast development of the cancer. The area was too irritated to operate. As a result, the family was free of uncertainty and instead focused on loving one another as if tomorrow was the last. Audrey's friend, Hubert de Givenchy, provided a private jet to take her home to Switzerland, which was bittersweet, since she returned home in luxury, but in bad health. Before the cancer, Somalia had been her last UNICEF trip. There, genocide and starvation plagued the people. After her visit there, and her awareness raising speeches, the press increased their efforts to bring up attention to the Somali cause. After Audrey died, the Audrey Hepburn Memorial Fund was created to give chances to African children chances through education (which Audrey deeply believed would help them).

Quote:
    ''Her style was only an extension of who she was, the person we all admired, because down deep we knew that what we saw was not just clever packaging but an honest and 100 percent genuine human being.'' (Ferrer 155).

Reaction:
     Although Audrey was referred to as the most elegant and most stylish woman in the world, it wasn't just the clothing that made her appear that way, it was also her inner values. She was honest, had pure intentions, disciplined, respectful, and more. She believed in simplicity, so she stuck to her own style, instead of following seasonal trends, because of this, she was unique and stylish. Although it's not just all about the looks; she knew who she was, and stuck to it, making her truly 'genuine'. I chose this quote because it showed how her inner values, and outer appearance defined Audrey Hepburn as an actress, model, and well respected icon of fashion.

Saturday, October 16, 2010

''...the work she dedicated herself to confirm for everyone that the twig they had fallen in love with years before had grown into a beautiful tree.'' (Ferrer 131). Pg 100-150

Summary:
     The pages I read were mostly pictures of Sean Ferrer Hepburn and his mother, and his childhood. He wrote about his experience growing up with a celebrity mother. He did not grow up in Hollywood, but in Switzerland. Audrey had stopped accepting films when Sean started attending boarding school and couldn't visit her film sets, and her other son, Lucca started school. She stayed home most of the time. She understood the desire for a father, so she made sure that her kids, Sean and Lucca, remained in contact with their fathers (both children were half-siblings). Audrey's work with UNICEF required that she go to different countries, and after returning from Somalia one day, she started having stomach pains. But soon it was revealed by her doctor that she had an appendix cancer that had been growing for 5 years and just started affecting her health. Just before a big surgery, Audrey revealed for the first time, just how scared she was, and Sean reassured her that they would see through it together. They were successful in keeping her health from the press for a while.

Quote:
''The one thing I dreamed of in my life was to have children of my own. It always boils down to the same thing. Not only receiving love, but wanting desperately to give it...Having children was for her one of the great joys of her life, an opportunity to heal her own childhood.'' (Ferrer 140).

Reaction:
     I chose that quote because it just shows how genuinely kind Audrey was towards kids. As a result of her fatherless childhood, she feels that she had to help other kids. She was a great mother to her own kids, and now she helped kids from poor countries who didn't have what her children had as kids. In a way, helping others also helped her help herself, since her childhood was lacking, like those children. She also felt that she had a 'natural connection' to the children she helped during UNICEF, and continued to help them until her health deteriorated due to cancer. I find that highly unselfish, kind, and wonderful of her to devote most of her time to children that needed help.

Friday, October 8, 2010

''It is always a dramatic moment when the Phoenix rises from its ashes.'' (Ferrer 84) Pg 50-100

Summary:
     This section of the book contains a lot about Audrey's life. Like how she sang really well in 'Moon River' really well because of her sincerity, not because she had an amazing voice. The composer of many of her films said that Audrey's singing was done perfectly because she had a 'slight sadness' that helped her understand the song really well. She was also described by people as
strong and independent, when in reality, she had a void inside her that the absence of her father left in her. However, that doesn't stop her from being a good mother to her children. She supports her children through everything and gave them the reassurance they needed.

Quote:
     ''And when we, her children, were grown and had started our lives, she chose the less fortunate children of the world. She chose to give back. In that important choice lay the key to healing and understanding something that had affected her throughout her entire life: the sadness that had always been there.'' (Ferrer 98)

Reaction:
     I chose that quote because it just shows how wonderful she was. She was a great mother to her kids, and when they were raised and on their own, she chose to help less unfortunate ones through her work with UNICEF. Also, it showed that she, too, had been sad due to the absence of her father, so now she understood that sadness and tried to alleviate that sadness from other children. Indeed, she was a person with a wonderful personality.

Friday, October 1, 2010

''She gets to spread her wings and fly away on a dancing whirl-wind that had been bottled up for years.'' (Ferrer 49) [Pg ix-50]

Summary:
     The main plot of this story is a biography about Audrey Hepburn, Sean Hepburn Ferrer's mother. The main characters are the people in their family, like Sean Ferrer himself, his mother, Audrey Hepburn, and fathers. Secondary characters would be Audrey Hepburn's associates. The setting varies depending on the point in life Sean talks about. For example, when he talks about his mother's past, it takes place in Belgium and the Netherlands.
     Sean talks about his mother in great depth and even clarifies information other authors have wrote about his mother, such as her name. He explains that Audrey's mother (his grandmother) changed her name to Edda during the war, so as not to alert the German forces their English identity. So her name is not Edda Kathleen Hepburn-Ruston, but legally Audrey Kathleen Ruston.

Quote:
     ''This is the story of a star who couldn't see her own light. Instead she saw herself as too thin, with a bump on the arch of her nose and feet too big for her size. So she felt honored and thankful for the attention, which is why she was always on time, she always knew her lines, and she always treated everyone around her with couresty and respect.'' (Ferrer xiii).

Reaction:
     I can feel that the author was very close to his mother. He talks about her like he understands her more than anyone else, which he probably does, considering he's seen his mother through everything she's been through. The quote is important because it showed that although Audrey Hepburn was a big deal, and a famous celebrity, she was just like everyone else, only more modest and a bit insecure. Despite her difficult childhood, failed marriages, and sadness for the children of the world, she still works hard.
Audrey Hepburn, Mel Ferrer, and Sean Ferrer.